End

This is the end of Truly Human. I am done with the dark and depressing. If you would like to continue reading I am starting a new blog to go with my new life. Follow me to psychologyeyes.wordpress.com/ .

Oh Yes I Did

I finally got the nerve. I changed my relationship status from single to in a relationship on facebook. I’ve been putting it off for the longest time. But now it just feels right!

My Reasons

1. He loves me.
2. I love him.
3. I want to have children with him.
4. He actually cares about me.
5. I care about him.
6. We’re happy together.
7. Stability.
8. He’ll take care of me.
9. He’s musical.
10. He wants to be with me.
11. He has the ability to take care of me.
12. He’d make an amazing father.
13. Agreeable.
14. He’s supportive.
15. He’s open to me being a stay at home mom or working if I want.
16. He loves dogs.
17. He’s tall.
18. Humor
19. He compliments me all the time.
20. He’s attractive.
21. He’s family oriented.
22. Makes me smile.
23. He’s sweet.
24. Affectionate.
25. Never boring.
26. My mom will love him.
27. He wants to be around me.
28. His family seems to like me.
29. He’s a good person.
30. He loves Assassin’s Creed as much as I do.
31. He can cook.

Thinking

I haven’t done any real writing a very long time, so let’s see what I can do now that I am just sitting and thinking about that. I’ve just been so busy lately. From moving in to getting settled and then going back to school because I am taking summer classes. I am ready for a summer break. Maybe when I actually have time I’ll just go down for a weekend or so and stay with my mom. That would be nice. Kind of like old times too. I think the summer before I came to college and weekends my senior year were the best for me. That’s when I would go to my mom’s apartment and we’d get a movie and either go out for some food or make something at home and we’d just crash and have fun together. Those were great times. I remember once I stayed there for like 5 days straight. It was a long weekend for school and I would go to work with her. It was all just so great.

Well this isn’t as long as I’d hope I would write, but it’s almost time for me to go to school. There are other things I still want to tell, but they will have to wait. And perhaps something I shouldn’t tell the world. Though I doubt highly my voice and thoughts are heard through out the world on this little blog.

I Have No Life

Well this isn’t exactly what I would consider a bad thing. I mean sure my day consists of doing really nothing, my accomplishment usually is getting dressed and then progresses into seeing how long I stay that way. It’s been only my cousin and I for almost two days. We both don’t talk much so it’s been rather quiet. I do enjoy the time to myself, but at times like this I am so bored out of my mind that I just want to go back to sleep. I’ve been living on instant oatmeal, popcorn, ramen and mountain dew for so long I am amazed I even wake up anymore.

I am doing chores for my aunt and uncle at the moment. They have two beautiful Dalmatians. I’ll admit I can’t remember the male’s name, Cota or something like that, but the female Abby is so cute. I pet her and it amazes me how soft her fur is. The male, I’ve been calling him Buddy since I can’t remember his name, is cautious of me, but he too is very cute. His fur isn’t as soft as Abby’s but it’s very close. Abby is an escape artist so I have to watch her closely. And then there are the chickens. I don’t like chickens. It’s not that I am scared of them, I just don’t like them. Maybe it’s the nonstop crowing they do. It will be 2 a.m. and you can hear them crowing. I hate chickens.

It sometimes amazes me how little me and my cousin speak. I think it’s because before I moved here I met him maybe once. He’s my aunt’s son from a former marriage so I am still getting to know her and him. I know her better just because I actually see her from time to time. My cousin works the night shift, so when he’s not working he’s sleeping. I thought before my aunt and uncle left I had made some leeway with my cousin. We seemed to be getting along good. We talked occasionally even. But now no one needs to worry about a party. We’re both much to quiet for that. But my roommate gets back sometime tomorrow so that could change. To be honest I am enjoying having the room to myself. It’s quiet, dark and I can do whatever I like and dress however I like. Sometimes walking around in practically nothing isn’t acceptable, but when one is alone does it really matter?

Spam

I randomly logged on today and found a spam comment. It made me laugh. This is what it said,

“The next time I read a blog, I hope that it doesnt disappoint me as much as this one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, but I actually thought youd have something interesting to say. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something that you could fix if you werent too busy looking for attention.”    -Alegro.pl

Well Alegro.pl, even with your terrible grammar skills I didn’t really take this to heart. But in response all I have to say is Fuck you. (: Have a nice day, because I know I will. Because I have an amazing person in my life that loves me and I know he does. So Fuck off. Sorry for the language everyone.

6 Months by Hey Monday

You’re the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can’t go on you tell me to go
And it’s like I can’t feel a thing without you around
And don’t mind me if I get weak in the knees
Cause you have that effect on me
You do
Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can’t think straight
But I’m okay
And I can’t think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
Months going strong now and no goodbye
Unconditional
Unoriginal
Always by my side
Meant to be together
Meant for no one but each other
You love me
I love you harder so
Everything you say
Every time we kiss I can’t think straight
But I’m okay
And I can’t think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hand
So please give me a lesson on how to steal
Steal the heart
As fast as you stole mine
As you stole mine yeah
Oh and everything you say
Every time we kiss I can’t think straight
But I’m okay
And I can’t think of anybody else
Who I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you
So please give me your hand
So please just take my hand.