A Dose of Honesty

Posted: October 29, 2010 in October
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The truth is I don’t understand. How can you say you’re confused when this has been your game from the beginning? How dare you call me stupid and mature when you’re the one that’s been blind the whole time. But I suppose now it doesn’t even matter. I wish you could just see for once what’s really happening. You always bragged about how you’re so amazing and know so much, but you can’t read me for shit. Or maybe you’re the selfish one. So selfish that you can’t see what you’re doing to both of us. But I don’t want to talk about this or even you anymore. I just feel really stupid for “falling” as you put it. I don’t see how that happened. I guess I am just really bored. I miss what I can’t have and I thought you were close to what I had. I just want him back. But we all know that’s not going to happen. It’s too hard trying to find a way now. I just want to be pulled back and not look at this any longer. I don’t want to focus and I don’t want to see. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t even want to see. I just want to feel the adrenaline in my veins and do something extremely stupid just to feel the pain.

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