Numb

Posted: April 26, 2011 in April
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Sad, but I think I am getting good at this. I’ve been rejected, beat down, and straight up left so many times that this blow just doesn’t seem so painful right now. I don’t know, maybe it’s just because I didn’t expect it to work out. Maybe my hearts just used to the scars that a new one doesn’t hurt like it used to…That cold, empty feeling isn’t as cold or as empty as I remember it from before. Maybe just a chill in comparison now. Maybe it’s just because I already have so much on my mind that this one bit of drama can’t be processed just yet. I have to worry about already; school work, finding a job, finding an apartment, paying bills. Being rejected just isn’t that huge part of my brain anymore.

In five months from today I’ll be twenty. I’ll have had one relationship that was meaningful and hopefully have worked three jobs in my life and two of those will hopefully be current. Being single doesn’t bother me anymore.

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