Archive for the ‘December’ Category


Posted: June 10, 2011 in December

This is the end of Truly Human. I am done with the dark and depressing. If you would like to continue reading I am starting a new blog to go with my new life. Follow me to .


Oh Yes I Did

Posted: June 8, 2011 in December
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I finally got the nerve. I changed my relationship status from single to in a relationship on facebook. I’ve been putting it off for the longest time. But now it just feels right!

Finding Your Place

Posted: April 28, 2011 in December
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I really I am in enjoying college now. I’ve found my circle of friends that even if I can’t see it at the moment they want to see me happy. I may have a small group but they’re may favorites.



Christy is probably my best friend at the moment. She’s firm and always there for me. She’s imaginative and fun. I think the best part is she opens my mind to other ideas and isn’t afraid to tell me how something is or when I am being stupid.



Sara is Christy’s girlfriend. She’s great. When I was in high school I didn’t have many gay friend. But I love it. I love the new ideas that come from it.



Shyanne is in a league of her own. She’s one of the few people I will put up with just to see what crazy, idiotic thing she’ll do next.



Raymond is one of the only guys I can not be mad at for any reason. He’s one of the only observant guys I know. He gives the best hugs too. He can just sense when you need a hug.

Anyway, I have great friends that are amazing. I love college.

Just Because I Can

Posted: March 15, 2011 in December

I don’t even know what to write about tonight. I don’t know why or even what upset me, but for some reason the quiet seems to help. It’s just like there is a void in my body right now, or even my life, and no matter what I do or think or try it can’t be filled. Something is missing and I would love to say I know what it is, but I don’t think I could even begin to understand my missing piece. But one thing I do know, no matter what happens to me I will write. I can’t even begin to imagine how my life would be if I didn’t write the way I do. Some people may think it’s conceded to write characters that are a lot like the author, but I think it’s my way of dealing with things. In every story I’ve ever worked on the main character is something like me and goes through a lot of the same things I feel or experience. Yes most of it is greatly exaggerated, but the character feels how I feel. I think that’s why I can never really finish any story. I lost my feeling and the story seems irrelevant then.


Posted: March 13, 2011 in December
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I don’t want to be another story or just another number a guy tells his friends. I am going to be the story you want your life to be. I am going to be that number you want.


Posted: January 21, 2011 in December
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I didn’t get much sleep last night. One of the down falls of living in a dorm is being at the mercy of everyone around you and whatever they could possibly be doing. Last night it was music and a party. midnight to three a.m. I don’t know if it’s just my being tired but today is just one of those days that you just don’t really care. My brother surprised me with a message on Facebook, which was rather odd seeing how he’s on a mission for our church and isn’t suppose to be allowed on internet sites. Anyway the whole point of his message was how I am messing up apparently and does our father know and am I even going to church. I really thought I’d have more freedom in college.

I am finding more and more that there is nowhere that I am truly free to do as I will. No matter what I do someone is always watching or reading or I don’t even know. I am feeling more and more that Facebook is something evil and should be treated like a spy…

And the pounding music starts again. I feel so ice cold right now. I miss having someone that truly understood me. Someone that was sad when I was sad and happy when I was happy. I miss having someone texting me until I fall asleep and making me feel bad for falling asleep. I miss feeling beautiful and sexy even when I am filthy and a total mess. I miss having someone that made it seem like there was nothing that could go wrong…Like no matter how terrible things got it would all pass and it’d be okay…


Posted: January 18, 2011 in December
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I don’t understand why people (and mostly guys) walk around with huge headphones like the ones you would see a DJ wearing. Are they trying to prove they are worthy of listening to music because of their gear? I think that’s really stupid. Are you trying to make us wonder if you’re just a poor DJ looking for work or something?