Archive for the ‘December’ Category

End

Posted: June 10, 2011 in December

This is the end of Truly Human. I am done with the dark and depressing. If you would like to continue reading I am starting a new blog to go with my new life. Follow me to psychologyeyes.wordpress.com/ .

Oh Yes I Did

Posted: June 8, 2011 in December
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I finally got the nerve. I changed my relationship status from single to in a relationship on facebook. I’ve been putting it off for the longest time. But now it just feels right!

Finding Your Place

Posted: April 28, 2011 in December
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I really I am in enjoying college now. I’ve found my circle of friends that even if I can’t see it at the moment they want to see me happy. I may have a small group but they’re may favorites.

Christy

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Christy is probably my best friend at the moment. She’s firm and always there for me. She’s imaginative and fun. I think the best part is she opens my mind to other ideas and isn’t afraid to tell me how something is or when I am being stupid.

Sara

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Sara is Christy’s girlfriend. She’s great. When I was in high school I didn’t have many gay friend. But I love it. I love the new ideas that come from it.

Shyanne

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Shyanne is in a league of her own. She’s one of the few people I will put up with just to see what crazy, idiotic thing she’ll do next.

Raymond

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Raymond is one of the only guys I can not be mad at for any reason. He’s one of the only observant guys I know. He gives the best hugs too. He can just sense when you need a hug.

Anyway, I have great friends that are amazing. I love college.

Just Because I Can

Posted: March 15, 2011 in December

I don’t even know what to write about tonight. I don’t know why or even what upset me, but for some reason the quiet seems to help. It’s just like there is a void in my body right now, or even my life, and no matter what I do or think or try it can’t be filled. Something is missing and I would love to say I know what it is, but I don’t think I could even begin to understand my missing piece. But one thing I do know, no matter what happens to me I will write. I can’t even begin to imagine how my life would be if I didn’t write the way I do. Some people may think it’s conceded to write characters that are a lot like the author, but I think it’s my way of dealing with things. In every story I’ve ever worked on the main character is something like me and goes through a lot of the same things I feel or experience. Yes most of it is greatly exaggerated, but the character feels how I feel. I think that’s why I can never really finish any story. I lost my feeling and the story seems irrelevant then.

Declaration

Posted: March 13, 2011 in December
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I don’t want to be another story or just another number a guy tells his friends. I am going to be the story you want your life to be. I am going to be that number you want.

Chilling

Posted: January 21, 2011 in December
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I didn’t get much sleep last night. One of the down falls of living in a dorm is being at the mercy of everyone around you and whatever they could possibly be doing. Last night it was music and a party. midnight to three a.m. I don’t know if it’s just my being tired but today is just one of those days that you just don’t really care. My brother surprised me with a message on Facebook, which was rather odd seeing how he’s on a mission for our church and isn’t suppose to be allowed on internet sites. Anyway the whole point of his message was how I am messing up apparently and does our father know and am I even going to church. I really thought I’d have more freedom in college.

I am finding more and more that there is nowhere that I am truly free to do as I will. No matter what I do someone is always watching or reading or I don’t even know. I am feeling more and more that Facebook is something evil and should be treated like a spy…

And the pounding music starts again. I feel so ice cold right now. I miss having someone that truly understood me. Someone that was sad when I was sad and happy when I was happy. I miss having someone texting me until I fall asleep and making me feel bad for falling asleep. I miss feeling beautiful and sexy even when I am filthy and a total mess. I miss having someone that made it seem like there was nothing that could go wrong…Like no matter how terrible things got it would all pass and it’d be okay…

DJ?

Posted: January 18, 2011 in December
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I don’t understand why people (and mostly guys) walk around with huge headphones like the ones you would see a DJ wearing. Are they trying to prove they are worthy of listening to music because of their gear? I think that’s really stupid. Are you trying to make us wonder if you’re just a poor DJ looking for work or something?