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I am finding that there are no more black and white answers really in life anymore. Everything has to be so complicated. No more black and white areas but more shades of gray. It’s so very confusing. No one can no longer just be happy with what they have. There has to be more. There has to be something better or more fun or whatever. No one can be chill anymore. Something has to be happening in your life.

I was at church Sunday and I found myself thinking, “When did religion and common sense become so…different?” I was raised Mormon, but when the church is tell you to get married and have children and not worry about your career I get so very…well sarcastic. What are these spoken of children to eat if you can’t afford to feed them? I am such a smart ass sometimes it even surprises me…


I remember when you said your father’s asleep
I remember swimming as our clothes drifted off to sea.
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me,
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me.
Here we go,
Just lose control and let your body give in,
To the beat,
Of your heart as my hand touches your skin,
Is this love
Or,
Just sexual desire,
We’re gonna start a fire!
I remember drinking as the stars were falling,
I remember dancing on the hotel’s unmade bed.
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me,
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me.
Here we go,
Just lose control and let your body give in,
To the beat,
Of your heart as my hand touches your skin,
Is this love
Or,
Just sexual desire,
We’re gonna start a fire!
Here we go,
Just lose control and let your body give in,
To the beat,
Of your heart as my hand touches your skin,
Is this love
Or,
Just sexual desire,
We’re gonna start a fire!
Taking chances in the back of your car,
We burn and on my radio is "Rockin’ in a Free World,
S.O.S.
So obsessed,
Oh you make me such a mess,
Why can’t this just last forever, why, why, why?
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me,
So wake up, wake up dreaming,
And lie here with me.
Here we go,
Just lose control and let your body give in,
To the beat,
Of your heart as my hand touches your skin,
Is this love
Or,
Just sexual desire,
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
Here we go,
Just lose control and let your body give in,
To the beat,
Of your heart as my hand touches your skin,
Is this love
Or,
Just sexual desire,
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!
We’re gonna start a fire!

Misinterpretations

Posted: January 27, 2011 in January
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It’s funny how something so small and insignificant to one person can be something blown out of proportion for someone else. Something that you don’t find bad or weird can make you as a leper or something to someone else. It doesn’t make sense really. It’s usually the people deemed as weird that don’t judge the rest of the world too. How odd is this strange little existence of life.

In this world of optimistic people I am an oddity. I am not really a pessimist, I just prefer to see reality as it really is, cruel and unrelenting. Bad things happen to good people. In the world today the only way to be successful is to cheat, bribe, or fight for it. If a guy isn’t showing true interest he’s not interested, and usually that’s not going to change. If you can tell he’s into your roommate don’t listen to the roommate when she says he’s really into you. He’s not. Move on.

How You Remind Me

Posted: January 27, 2011 in January
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A list of things that remind me:

Graham Crackers, 1000 Ways To Die, Deadliest Warrior, Invader Zim, Russian, Tarot Cards, Softball, Mountain Dew, Axe Twist, Monster Coffee Russian style, Amp Cherry flavor, When In Rome, my Punisher hat, The Book of Eli, Orange soda in a 2 liter bottle, Zombies, Resident Evil: Apocalypse.

Ice To The Touch

Posted: January 26, 2011 in January
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I can’t get over the icy feeling that runs down my back when I hear or see or think of something that reminds me of the past. I start thinking about a certain person and it just hurts. How have a managed to ruin this one?

Gal Pal

Posted: January 25, 2011 in January
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A Gal Pal is a friend of a guy that is pretty much one of the guys.

It almost makes me feel bad when I am a ligament friend for a guy. Like a friend that they trust like a friend that’s a guy. When a guy that neither you or he is interested in anything past friendship they tell you things that they except to trust you with. One of my guy friends is one of my friend’s boyfriend. For some reason he and I are very good friends and he comes to me when he needs help or advice. Sometimes I almost feel really bad because since his girlfriend is such a close friend of mine I don’t want to say something to make their relationship weird.

Just Another Day

Posted: January 23, 2011 in January
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There’s just a weird feeling about me for the past few days. I am not quite into my usual emo funks. It’s more of just quiet days. Sitting around and thinking of how things use to be and miss him. Missing those days when it was you and I and the quiet warmth of that day. Amazing how all the other noises and worries just vanished and nothing could possible both us…