Moving Out

Posted: May 23, 2011 in May
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I am officially moved out. Burning some incense finally. The first one was in honor of mom. Found some of the old stuff that she used to burn. Next with be the new incense she got me from Bisbee. Finally feeling like I am home.

I went home for the last time this weekend. I probably won’t be back for a very long time if at all. Anything of value to me or that is mine is with me and mostly likely going to be living in my car for a while…But I am free now.


  1. When I know something is wrong, but I am not sure what is wrong or I don’t know exactly how to fix it I like to listen to The Dave Matthews Band.                                                  
  2. I also like to Dave Matthews when I miss my mom. She listens to him a lot and it brings back memories.       
  3. I am spontaneous, but I will occasionally look before I jump.                                                        
  4. I am really good with sensory details and terrible with names. If you want me to remember something usually saying something like the blonde guy or the car that smelled like peppermint is better than Jared or the Toyota.                                                                                                                
  5. I love to cook.                                                             
  6. I want a lime green Chevy Camaro someday.                                                                       

Pictures from Google Images.

Sound of Settling

Posted: May 13, 2011 in May

Well I am moved. I’ve been so very stressed. I am exhausted. I am still catching up on sleep. I’ll be happy when everything’s just relaxed again. I am just so excited to just have a routine again.

College Worries

Posted: May 11, 2011 in May
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I truly despise moving. I’ve never really moved big time in my life, but coming and going from college. But I hate it. I think right now it’s just the oh my god I am not coming back feeling I have right now. And the oh god how am I going to survive the summer with no job. I had an interview but they decided not to hire me. If something comes open they will, but until then I don’t know…

New Video

Posted: May 10, 2011 in May
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Posted: May 10, 2011 in May
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I am getting nervous about moving out. I am not nervous about where I am living or who is my landlord. All of those are easy. I am living on my uncle’s property and he’s my landlord. What worries me is my roommate. One of my roommates from the dorms is going to live there with me, but I am wondering how this is going to work out. She’s very much independent and I am still getting used to the idea. I know my uncle won’t push us around and stuff, but she gets…odd about things when I ask if it’s ok if someone spends the night or sits in on dinner. To me that’s just being considerate of others. If my uncle isn’t comfortable with someone staying or being there then they won’t be there.

I am also worried about the close quarters and how I am going to be treated. My roommate is gay and she’s already talked about having sex there with her girlfriend. I told her I didn’t want them doing that there. Most of that decision is for my sake but then there’s the thoughts of how my family would feel about that. I love my roommate like a sister, but if I am not going to be treated fairly or my opinion isn’t going to be heard I might as well have gone home to my father.

My roommate is assertive in ways I am not. But sometimes she asserts all over me. “When are you going to be independent? When are you going to stop letting your father rule you?” You have to understand my situation. It’s not an easy one…I know we both have had hard lives before college, but she can’t just assume she had it worse and she knows how everything should be handled. I don’t like just jumping into a “solution” for a problem. I have to think about how it’s going to effect me and others…

Who Knew by Pink

Posted: May 9, 2011 in May
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You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you’d be around
Uh huh
That’s right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That’s right
If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
Cause they’re all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I’d give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
‘fore they’re long gone
I guess I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
Yeah yeah
I’ll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won’t forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
Cause they’re all wrong and
That last kiss
I’ll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew.