Posts Tagged ‘Facebook’

Oh Yes I Did

Posted: June 8, 2011 in December
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I finally got the nerve. I changed my relationship status from single to in a relationship on facebook. I’ve been putting it off for the longest time. But now it just feels right!


A Letter Back to You

Posted: February 2, 2011 in February
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I did a little thinking as I stared blankly at my computer screen on Facebook and I decided to try and write a letter back to my ex just to see what I would say. I could never actually send it to him and I am sure if I knew he was going to read it wouldn’t say a lot of what it does. But maybe it should if it ever did get sent…Well here it is:

I don’t even know why i try to still talk to you. You only ignore me anyway. I don’t even see why we were together. It was a mistake and ruined our friendship. We had something good going until we started actually dating. I should never have been your girlfriend, especially not then. You weren’t ready and I wasn’t ready. It was bad timing and I wish we could go back to how things used to be. It was so simple then. We talked all the time and could be weird and everything was great. But then…I had to say yes and ruin everything. I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t let us happen; if we would have just stayed friends. Would we have ended up like all my other friends from high school and never talk anymore?

Grow Up!

Posted: February 1, 2011 in February
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I don’t understand some people in college. The fact that they made it to college is amazing when you think about it. Some of these people are still acting like children and can’t even think ahead enough to figure out how they would get home if they went somewhere. But maybe I am over reacting on some of this. I was amazed when I got here and not everyone has a driver’s license or even a car. But that’s just because I was raised in the middle of nowhere. You learned to drive and you were legal.

But perhaps I’ll get back to my original plans for this post. I am amazed by how immature people are here. I’ve always been told I am too serious and my parents called it maturity. I always have at least small plans when I am doing something. I at least know how I am getting back from somewhere if I am not driving myself. But some people can’t even do that. The world is falling apart when they can’t find their shoes. And that’s nothing compared to relationships.

My roommate’s ex is just insane. I wouldn’t mind so much if it didn’t effect her so much. He told her she wouldn’t see him anymore and it’d be like he never existed. This is where I roll my eyes. She was right to think he might kill himself after he posted this on facebook:

Along a path I used to dwell
There was a girl I loved so swell
She came and gave her love to me
But now she’s gone and set me free
My dad came home late one night
Broke my door down and in his fright
Saw me hanging by a rope
On my dresser found this note
"Dig my grave and dig it deep
Marble stone from head to feet
At the end place a dove
To show the world I died for love.

And this is where I shout grow up! I never liked this guy to begin with and when my roommate asked what I thought if they were to start dating I warned her not to do it. He’s 24. She’s barely 18. He’s looking for a wife and I know she doesn’t want to get married for a long time. This relationship had don’t do it written all over it in big red letters. And now once they’ve broken up he thinks he loved her and can’t get over her. He doesn’t even have the excuse that she was his first. He bragged about how he’s had so many girlfriends and how he’s such a good kisser the first night we met. Yeah that doesn’t attract me. It just screams how if he’s telling the truth he’s either a player or a crappy boyfriend.


Posted: January 21, 2011 in December
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I didn’t get much sleep last night. One of the down falls of living in a dorm is being at the mercy of everyone around you and whatever they could possibly be doing. Last night it was music and a party. midnight to three a.m. I don’t know if it’s just my being tired but today is just one of those days that you just don’t really care. My brother surprised me with a message on Facebook, which was rather odd seeing how he’s on a mission for our church and isn’t suppose to be allowed on internet sites. Anyway the whole point of his message was how I am messing up apparently and does our father know and am I even going to church. I really thought I’d have more freedom in college.

I am finding more and more that there is nowhere that I am truly free to do as I will. No matter what I do someone is always watching or reading or I don’t even know. I am feeling more and more that Facebook is something evil and should be treated like a spy…

And the pounding music starts again. I feel so ice cold right now. I miss having someone that truly understood me. Someone that was sad when I was sad and happy when I was happy. I miss having someone texting me until I fall asleep and making me feel bad for falling asleep. I miss feeling beautiful and sexy even when I am filthy and a total mess. I miss having someone that made it seem like there was nothing that could go wrong…Like no matter how terrible things got it would all pass and it’d be okay…

Humor In Many Forms

Posted: November 20, 2010 in November
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Yesterday my mom got a Facebook. It was rather hilarious, mainly because my mom was so confused and didn’t know what to do. I live about two hours from my mom, so if you were to walk in the room while I am on the phone and on Facebook at the same time trying to talk my mom through it you would have laughed your ass off. The main problem was just that the computer she was on would automatically log me into Facebook because it has a password saving program. So my mom was pretty much hacking my Facebook, didn’t realize it and posting and doing this to my homepage. It was an eventful day. Ha-ha!


Posted: August 7, 2010 in August
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I’ve mentioned before that I have issues with trusting people. Mostly guys. When a guy tells me to relax and trust him on something, I just won’t. I’ve learned from the past that everyone, not just guys, can let you down. Personally I’d rather just do something myself than have to rely on someone else.

Another part of trust is truth. I hate it when people lie to me, or try to use me to get something. Usually if you’re a close friend to me I won’t call you out on a lie and I usually won’t be too upset that you lied to me. But then you can never fully trust yourself.

I suppose that’s my problem. I have too much self doubt. If I read something and it does upset me, my emotions go kind of crazy. I’ll start doubting myself. Recently I read something a friend posted on Facebook. It was talking about how they were…I’ll say confused on what they wanted to do. I honestly don’t know why I still have this person on my Facebook friends list. We share an ex. And I suppose seeing how he broke up with me because he wasn’t over her really made me “emotional”. I saw how she hurt him and I started to really hate her. I’d see how she had commented on a post I’d written (I publish my posts from WordPress to Facebook.) My posts to my blog are fairly personally to me. I write about what I am feeling mostly. At the moment I was already “moody” with her. Her comments made it worse.

Now I read something rather old that she wrote. I just have to say hypocrite. For the past well 3 weeks or so she’s been trying to make me feel better about the break up. I am sorry but why would I take relationship advice from a girl who was with the same guy as me and cheated!? (Well I haven’t read the whole story but that’s what I am getting out of it.) If it were another friend of mine, maybe I’d listen, but I just won’t when it comes to this.

I still feel really bad for him. I just really hope he doesn’t do something stupid, like taking her back. I don’t think he would, but I just don’t know anymore. I don’t have much say on this seeing how I’ll be in college and they’re still in high school. (I hung out with the younger kids in my school…) I really wish I were still in high school.