Posts Tagged ‘School’

Thinking

Posted: June 1, 2011 in June
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I haven’t done any real writing a very long time, so let’s see what I can do now that I am just sitting and thinking about that. I’ve just been so busy lately. From moving in to getting settled and then going back to school because I am taking summer classes. I am ready for a summer break. Maybe when I actually have time I’ll just go down for a weekend or so and stay with my mom. That would be nice. Kind of like old times too. I think the summer before I came to college and weekends my senior year were the best for me. That’s when I would go to my mom’s apartment and we’d get a movie and either go out for some food or make something at home and we’d just crash and have fun together. Those were great times. I remember once I stayed there for like 5 days straight. It was a long weekend for school and I would go to work with her. It was all just so great.

Well this isn’t as long as I’d hope I would write, but it’s almost time for me to go to school. There are other things I still want to tell, but they will have to wait. And perhaps something I shouldn’t tell the world. Though I doubt highly my voice and thoughts are heard through out the world on this little blog.

Numb

Posted: April 26, 2011 in April
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Sad, but I think I am getting good at this. I’ve been rejected, beat down, and straight up left so many times that this blow just doesn’t seem so painful right now. I don’t know, maybe it’s just because I didn’t expect it to work out. Maybe my hearts just used to the scars that a new one doesn’t hurt like it used to…That cold, empty feeling isn’t as cold or as empty as I remember it from before. Maybe just a chill in comparison now. Maybe it’s just because I already have so much on my mind that this one bit of drama can’t be processed just yet. I have to worry about already; school work, finding a job, finding an apartment, paying bills. Being rejected just isn’t that huge part of my brain anymore.

In five months from today I’ll be twenty. I’ll have had one relationship that was meaningful and hopefully have worked three jobs in my life and two of those will hopefully be current. Being single doesn’t bother me anymore.