I am almost there. I am almost done with being told what to do and how to do things. I am almost living on my own. I am almost truly free.
I’ve realized something in the past 24 hours or so. I can do just fine on my own. Yes I’ve been rejected yet again, but even that blow doesn’t hurt much anymore. I’ve thought about becoming bi sexual, but honestly that just makes me chuckle. If it comes down to it if there is even a hint of a guy being interested in me I would pick a guy over a girl. But honestly I think just being me for a while sounds great. Yes I want to be with someone again, but I am free to do anything I want when I want.
The only reason I went after this last guy is all over prophecy really. He was Mormon, and seemed like a great guy. I could see myself having kids and all that good Mormon stuff with him. But after that I really don’t even know. I admit I chose him because I knew my family and religion would like him. But he’s not a guy that is for me. I need those guys that are out of the box and different. So screw trying to think ahead for when I get married. I have a new rule, well two new rules; No Mormon boys and no blondes. Who knows maybe I’ll find that guy someday that is just right…
Truly Human 